you ever get mad at yourself for liking someone more than you expected

it is irritating me to no end 

like why am i checking my phone like an idiot?

and making up scenerios in my head if we were to be together?

like last month i was chilling.. cool as a fan

now im all giggly and goo goo eyed  and butterflies

and all that crap

i should not be liking you this much

blah.

do something wrong already so i can go back to my regular thuggish self.