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Emotions

Goddamn emotions

Like standing at the edge of the cliff

I drift in between diving all in

Or staying safe in my place

This reaction happen so quickly

I believe the Lord is testing me

Because didn’t i tell him 

I dont wanna do this again?

 So i remain unnerved

your sweet-nothings

good morning text

your sly smile

your way with words

I wont be moved

I refuse to let it all 

go downhill again

trusting you with my body is one thing

But my heart is entirely too fragile to bear

another beating

another broken promise

another shot 

another torment

i dont need to be loved right now. 

especially by you.